The abuse and/or rape will affect you in a number of ways. They are not always negative though. I think that because I have been to such dark places and come back again,(and then gone back again and then come back again) it made me really focus on what I want from life and what I want to do to change it.
You are a person, with your own personality and skills. Your identity is not that you are a survivor of sexual violence. That is something that happened to you. You are so much more than that. Don’t let it take you away.